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[May. 17th, 2005|11:39 pm] |
you ever have one of those moments when you realize how far behind you really are?
or how lost you are?
im having both right now.....i should be in one of my last years of college knowing where the fuck i want to be, instead im working a job i think is ok at best, going to school less than part time and doing nothing................. |
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[Jan. 26th, 2005|12:19 am] |
jays alive
just moved to a house
www.geocities.com/burntwaffle/index2.html
busy as hell at work
started school today
jay gets no rest, jay still has no girl
jay is tired
night |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 13th, 2005|11:27 pm] |
Ask me 4 questions.
Any 4 no matter how personal, private or random.
I have to answer them honestly but can be answered artistically. In turn you post this message in your own journal & you have to answer the questions that are asked to you. |
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[Dec. 5th, 2004|07:27 pm] |
sometimes i feel good
sometimes i feel bad
sometimes im drifting in the middle,
teetering and tottering
the words reapeating
burned like a branding iron to my skull
burned in my head
the body on the pavement, the words in the air
the death in the air
the feeling of not knowing what to do.....
images, just images.racing back and forth....
wrapped in a white towel, a shirtless man.......a big black car...
the words....the words..........
thats all i see in my head........
the words....
the death...
( Just F.Y.I i didnt hit anything..i saw something outside my apartment and im still not sure what it was.and it hasnt left my head.what i saw at least..........if it helps any, i think it was a dog.) |
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| Random mix tapes rule, malls are fun, and circuit city employees are dumb. |
[Nov. 19th, 2004|10:05 pm] |
OK, I have a few statements that need to be made
Statement #1.) mix cd’s made by someone you don’t know and handed down to you rule.
Statement #2.) malls are very much like medieval marketplaces in Europe ( including the random gypsies that try to rip you off.)
Statement #3) if you ever feel down in life, go to a mall. You will feel better.
Statement #4.) If you want to feel any better go to a huge electronics store and try to buy a pair of speakers.
So I got my car fixed today and I was feeling kinda bummed because I’m officially poor again after receiving the biggest paycheck I have ever gotten. I hopped into my accord after doing a few laps around the pep boys building( to ease the pain of getting rammed in the ass, naturally) And I popped a cd in that my brother had given me that was made by a friend of his. This cd turned out to be a semi-satirical album of songs to....um…….err…………..hide the salami with. So I drive to the mall listening to Barry white, prince, I’m to sexy by right said Fred….fucking a!!! and some awesome weird techno ( by far one of the best driving songs I have ever heard by the way, imagine me doing the night at the Roxbury head bobbing... Yeah classic right?) Hence statement number one ( more on this statement later.)
I get to the mall, forgetting that it is mid nov, so the fucking thing is packed tight. Find a parking spot the next city over and walk in, planning to buy a DVD. Go to FYE, nothing…..crap……go to best buy……nothing….damnit, go to suncoast.. nothing again. I am starting to get mildly disappointed but I always feel better when I am in a mall, just being around all of the loser teens that live there and watching people throw away there money puts some kind of sadistic joy in my heart I guess. ( statement number three proven.)
So onto statement two ( ignore the fact that I proved three first……..that’s an organizational error….not my fault I swear!) I came to this conclusion right before the gypsy tried to rip me off.)I looked at all the stores and the booths and the people and I got to thinking how a mall is very similar to a marketplace ( who would have thought that? I thought it was a place to meet chicks and make fun of people.) So I looked at all the kiosks as little shops and was having a merry old’ time wandering around the mall…this is when she struck. Now I’m not sure why she struck. Maybe its because I’m so devilishly handsome that she couldn’t keep away but I doubt that. Working in retail for many years has given me something of an eye for people so I know that she saw me as an easy mark. Early twenties, no ring, kinda scruffy looking. She figured she could get my thirty nine dollars and ninety nine cents. Well she was wrong! She walks up. To me
Her: ( in this sooo obviously fake European accent, and I know…I fucking love accents.)
“ do you want to see something amazing?”
Me ( always up for amazing things.) sure, why not?
This was my first mistake
So she proceeds to grab my arm and walk me over to her little shop, marketplace ,etc. and begins to buffer, and when I say buffer I mean with all the intensity she can muster up my finger( ring on the right hand) and she’s talking to me. I can barely understand a damn word she’s saying cause of her fake accent……and she keeps asking me questions about how I like it and what smell I like better. Making sure to keep everything an open ended question….leaving me no escape.( she was good real good. In fact I envy that kind of skill in sales to be perfectly honest.) so after about twenty minutes of my one finger being buffered and me being badgered she goes.
Her: so how many would you like?
I was floored! This had to be one of the best sales presentations I have ever heard. She was good, real good.
But she wasn’t getting my money, oh no.
Me: no thank you, I really cant afford something like this at the moment.
Her: but I haven’t told you how much they were
FUCK!
Me: well how much are they?
Her- thirty nine ninety nine and you get the ( cant remember exactly what it was) for free.
Me: I’m sorry I only have twenty dollars and I have something in mind I need to pick up.
Her: well for you ill knock it down to fifteen
Me: I’m sorry I really can’t
Then. She does the pouty lip! The fucking pouty lip……I had to run…….
So that was my third statement. On two the fourth. I left the mall disappointed because I was still DVD less, so I figured id go to the brand new circuit city that opened up last week. They are sure to be carrying a DVD by a band that not a whole lot of [people know about and fewer like! It seamed brilliant…I felt warm and fuzzy inside. And then I walked in. it was set up like every other best buy/circuit city out there so I wasn’t really amazed or anything. I walked into the DVD section and of course, they didn’t have it. So I was mildly sad so I felt that I should see what else they have, and working in a smaller Consumer electronic chain and coming from the other monster chain I have a lot of fun walking around and listening to the employees talk to people. It’s another one of my sad little habits, but it never went to the point that this one did.
DISCLAIMER: THIS NEXT PORTION HAS MANY TECHY GEEKY WORDS AND MAKES ME SEEM LIKE AN ARROGANT PRICK. IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO SEE THIS PART OF ME,PLEASE DO NOT READ ON.
I wander around the store and finally end up in the home audio portion of the store One rule I have come up with about shopping my competition is that if there are a lot of customers or if they are busy don‘t bug them, it’s a comment courtesy that I have, these guys were dead. Its game time.
First off I want to comment on the selection of products and how I felt upon entering the department, because I feel that that is very important. The section is tucked neatly away in the back corner of the store in a land far away from every other department, and all of there home theater systems are set up in this little recessed area. It was kind of nifty, but every time I turned one on I had two others blaring at me. I get tired of playing with the one infinity set up and the one Polk set up they had so I walked over to where the inwall speakers were. At this point one of the salesreps has rap blaring, so loud its uncomfortable. I walk past him and down an isle. He contacts me ( a monumental feat considering I had been in there for about half an hour and he was the first person to even say hi, I had to track down someone in the DVD department.)
Him( in an amazingly thick Jamaican accent) Can I help you?
Me; maybe, I’m looking for some speakers.
Him off like a rocket
Him: well den dis ere is what you want!
( he points me to a Bose 3.2.1 gs ii system)
It will play anyting you want, DVD, cd, and all out of these two speakers.
Me; all I’m going to be using this for is music, no DVD.
Him: ok den, (walks me over to the bose 201 shelf speakers.) dese here are the best, the sound good ( cranks up the rap.) see?
Me: not really, I have room for bigger speakers
( he looks confused)
Just then one of the other employees comes up to him with a question about remotes……he couldn’t answer, but I used this as a chance to walk back over to the systems again. I started to fiddle around with a Harmon karden receiver and some infinity speakers.
He walks back over
Me: can I listen to just these speakers?
( pointing at the infinities.)
Him: sure!
Plays around with the receiver for a full five minutes before any sound comes out. So I look over the faq tag and see its abbreviation before every driver. And I ask him what it stands for. He has no idea and runs to the computer to check. Another employee walked over.
Me: can you turn the sub woofer off? I really just want to hear these two speakers.
Rep#2 : sure
Muddles with the receiver for a few minutes and finally turns it off.
I listen for a few seconds. The rep #1 comes back in and starts yelling over the music.
Rep #1: It helps with the bass.
Me: really?
#1: yup
Me: Then why is it on every driver?
He looks confused again, I drop it.
So I ask them if I could hear the polks that are next to it.
Rep #1 keeps telling me about how good they sound in surround sound while rep #2 fiddles with the reciever…..I reiterate to rep #1 that I am only going to be using this for music. I look back and rep#2 is in the speaker set up and instead of turning the sub off he just turns the db level down as far as itll go, it still rumbles but not too much. So I give up. Listen for a few more seconds. Thank them both for there time and left. I sat in my car and laughed my ass off for about ten minutes before I tunred the car on. Statement #4 done. I turn the car on and that damn fine techno song starts again. I bob my head and drive off…..then….the village people, macho man, and then the topper. What ended my night, the perfect send off, van halen hot for teacher……..Random mix tapes rule, malls are fun, and circuit city employees are dumb. that’s all. |
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[Oct. 4th, 2004|06:34 pm] |
Its taken me almost six months but i think im getting the hang of this new job
yay!
im seeing cake on thurs
yay!
i get to spend a weekend in ny
yay!
im going back to school in the spring
yay!
alot of yays
jay is happy |
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[Sep. 24th, 2004|10:21 pm] |
I sit here and think to myself, what to type.
what to enter.
what else do i have to say.
what will i say that will be heard, or headed for that matter.
the answer is nothing.
i have said all i can say.
i have done all i can do.
and so here i sit at a crossroad in my life.
at what i feel is probably the biggest turning point in my direction ever.
and i can't share it with you.
And now I'm afraid to share it, theres so much there it would be like breaking a damn open.
and the last thing i want is for you to drown.
I'm Heading in a new direction, a new mind set. a new me, i know where i want to be and more importantly, who i want to be.
and i wish, beyond anything else that you were here, beside me.
but your not
so i go at this alone, and i think i am ready for it.
but only time will tell.
if this soudns like babbling p[lease disregard anything and everything i just said.
If this stuff makes perfect sense to you i have no idea what you should do, that is all |
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[Sep. 11th, 2004|11:31 pm] |
you know sometimes i wonder.
i raelly do
what can i do to get ahead?
honestly?
im making more cash now but i cant seem to climbv out of the hole...things keep going fucking wrong
turns out the fine i paid didnt get paiod because my bank denied payment........................even though i had the money in the acount.
dmy best friend called to talk to my roomate to tell him hes going to the army
then didnt even speak to me.
i'm still waiting for your return phone call.....and i have the strange feeling im going to be waiting a long time.
im, pissed off. im tired, im lonely, im depressed, is there anything else i need to say?
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probably but im too pissed off to think about it |
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[Aug. 29th, 2004|11:40 pm] |
The noise
The buzz
The crickets
the hum
Its all
One piece
Off everything
I see
The waves
They crash
My life’s in ashes
But what parts do you see?
My glasses
Are off
My eyes are blind
The words you see
Are all from
My mind
The tears
The joy
The life
The death
All I can say is “I don’t know”
I sit here and look at the clouds
Drifting over my head outside
Blurry and black and white
I feel a breeze on my shoulder
Its cold
And all I do is sigh
The air
Feels nice
I feel
at home
Its hard
To believe
That I’m all alone
I look
out the window
And wait
for you
But waiting isn’t good enough
I learn
The breeze feels nice
As the crickets carry on
I listen
To their words
And I laugh
Because the crickets are right. |
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[Aug. 29th, 2004|10:53 pm] |
well its been a damn loing time since i wrote naything here and i figured i might as well do it drunk.....cant go wrong with that right?
the new job is going good, i keep accidently stepping on toes but whatever.its going good
i need to do work on my car still but im lazy and semi poor so thatll have to wait.
and im tired of writing now
just letting everyone know im still alive and well
yeah i am |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 23rd, 2004|08:02 am] |
hi there!
long time no see eh?
just felt like popping in to give ya'all a quick update.
im still in the hole financially and cant get out
i like my new job so far.
i have court on monday for the speeding ticket i got in april
andprimus is great wake up music
thats about it
jay |
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[Jul. 16th, 2004|10:57 am] |
"I would go back to the top of the day from scratch
If I thought that this thing could be fixed
Though sadly I'd do exactly the same thing as when
We broke in two
Busted through
Broke in two"
god bless tmbg
well im officially broke as hell, but my car is paid for so is the phone bill and my car insuranc!
yay!
seeing dmb tonight
yay again
i like my new job and ill be making decent wages soon
yay!
im running on two or three hours sleep
yay!
ok i need to stop |
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[Jul. 2nd, 2004|06:22 pm] |
well for those of you who were worried, i am still alive and i just got out of my three week training at tweeter
ill write more later but im tired as hell now and im goin to see spiderman 2
yay! |
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[Jun. 18th, 2004|11:38 pm] |
hey hey hey
its been a while and i apologize.
ive been stuck in the great city of boston training for my new job for the past week. its been a blast and ive been learning more than i could have thought possible. along with me getting semi orginized...............two more weeks to go.so aside from that not a whole lots been goin on
birfdays tues
seein primus wed
going to my cousins graduation is next weekend so i get to go to that and see my brother again too
yay!so thats aboot it
night |
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[Jun. 6th, 2004|01:21 pm] |
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| | aquabats: fight song | ] |
well, my three year stint at best buy is officially over, and im kinda sad. it was abig part of my life and it changed me for the better in alot of ways. /im still very broke and hungry but thats not gonna change anytime soon. overall though things seem to be still going well. thats really about it. |
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[Jun. 2nd, 2004|12:11 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | pj harvey: rub it till it bleeds | ] |
stupid women
stupid boyfriends.
stupid stupid stupid.
well anyways i have one more option.......a new girl at work.........
have you seen big fish?
you know the seen where ewen macgregor sees the girl in the circus and right then knows hes gonna marry her?
well i kinda felt this way, lets just hope its not me being a hopeless romantic.......
....on another note only four days left at best buy then my new life at tweeters starts
yay!
so yeah, thats aboot it
jay |
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[May. 28th, 2004|10:47 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | nick drake- northern sky | ] |
well, i have a new job, ill be able to pay mah bills soon hopefully.
I have a small chance of getting a girl.
life seams to be on an upswing
lets see what pops up to destroy it now....................... |
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[May. 24th, 2004|04:24 pm] |
put my two week notice in to work today and ironiclly also won a paid day to six flags
yay?? |
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[May. 19th, 2004|07:19 pm] |
one on one interview on fri at tweeters
got written up again at work
need to pay phone bill, rent and car payment this check
aint happinin
but the phones allready off. the car payments late
and so is the rent, so i dont really have much of a choice now do i?
god damn it |
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[May. 18th, 2004|11:24 am] |
goin for a meet and greet with tweeter today
yay
hopefully ig et the job..........................
saw van helsing last night, save your cash and wait for it to come out on dvd.......but it was in dlp so the picture was abso-frikken-lulty gourgous. |
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